C.S Lewis- Chapter One and Two

I have experienced alot of death within my short life and have had many counselors talk to me about death and how to handle it. However, none of them ever discribed or dipicted the grave in the manner or used the images quite like C.S Lewis did in these first two chapters of the book. In the past four years, since I arrived at Southeastern University, I have lost around fifteen friends due to many different situations. The image of death has been dead to me and has not meant alot, until I began to explore the writings of C.S Lewis and started to view them with an open-mind. I feel that C.S Lewis is dealing with greif. For example, what I mean is that I can only imageine losing a wife, and how hard that would be, and in some regrads that may be unbearable. Relationships that are with a serious girlfriend or a wife would be the type of situation that would hit me the hardest and would cause the most pain. When losing a serious relationship I can relate completely, just recently I was in a relationship for five and half years and the pain of breaking up was tremedous on me. I had my doubts of what was going on? Why is that happening? and I had the same doubts when I lost my friends. I look back at it and say Why did you let that happen God? Why?. The toughest thing I had to overcome when facing the death of some of my freinds was the fact that I was trying to get them out of the stuff that they were in. To this day I still ask Why? Why didnt you let me turn them around first? These chapters has made my brain go into overload thinking about death and to be honest I really dont like it. Going thursday to the grave won't be to hard because I'm not seeing my friends or family members graves but I will have the image of their grave in my mind while I am looking at someones elses. It will be hard but with God I will be strong.